Alright, so this post will be all directed towards MY GIRLFRIEND.

First, I wanna say sorry about today cos' I was irritating you all the while. It was cos' I'm just that moody cos' I really miss you a lot.

Second, what made it worse was this morning where I was so "smart" enough that I forgot to wear my belt and even forgot about my wallet and just left house.

Third, I was really confused about what I was doing during work today. I was really aimless, I didn't know what I should do, what I was supposed, etc.

Anyway, to the main point, why I was moody. Frankly, even I myself don't know the reason as well. My guess is, a horrible mood swing, combined with me really really missing you, and really really needing you by my side. I don't want you. But instead, I need you. People always say, we can always get things that we want later, as things that we "need" is of more priority. It's just like you, I need you. I know I do miss you a lot everytime, but today, I have no idea why I'm getting so moody. I'm guessing it's also cos' you didn't tell me why you aren't going to school? And also because I was really really worried about you?

You know baby, it's just that weird. This hasn't happened before, it's just you that I'm experiencing so much drama. Honestly, I didn't really talk much in office today. Mostly was because I was worried about you. But, when at around 4.21pm, when you said that I don't love you, that moment just made the worrying even worse. And the next few messages that were received from you made me almost wanted to cry. I held back my tears though, cos' I didn't want to cry in office. I was really worried at that point when you said that. Then when I finished work, I called your phone, you didn't pick up. I called again, but you still didn't pick up. That's why I called your home. But then, no one picked up either. That was when I got really really scared and I just instantly recalled that nightmare that I had that day. I'm just really afraid to lose you girl, I really need you, I can't afford to not have you in my life. Maybe I think too much? But many scenes went by that instant when I couldn't contact you. My hand trembled in fear of the nightmare. This hasn't happened before, not towards anyone.. It's just you, you're that important to me dear.

I alighted at Outram Park because you couldn't hear me. I wanted to talk to you when at the MRT station, but this headache just made things bad. I know I was really agitated at that point of time, I'm sorry baby. It's all because I really wanted to just talk to you, hear your voice, but the stupid reception just made you not able to hear me. That's why I got so angry, and that's when my headache got worse. I almost cried in the MRT station when I was talking to you. Honestly, one or two tears actually did drop from my eye when talking to you at the taxi stand.

Onto the taxi, I was still weeping a little, but you tried your best to cheer me up. You succeeded, you always succeeds. It's just like you're a special magician, you could control my moods, my emotions. It's all based on you. Even when I'm upset, just you talking to me could make a difference.

Finally, thank you baby, I really really want to thank you. I know I've been irritating today, very irritating, sorry again.. Now that I'm happy, that's why the post feels a little weird. If I'd blogged just now instead, I think I would've cried all the way while typing, and the post would've been terrible to look at. Baby, I know you've always assured me that my nightmares won't happen, I've tried my best to believe you. But you know, I'm more towards a pessimist, which is why I always get worked up even over the simplest things.

Please, take care of yourself, I'm really worried about you dear, you're always either having headaches or tummy pains. I know I'll be a nottie boy and go to your house after work if I were to know that you're not feeling well. But that's cos' I really want to take care of you. That's why I'm always making a fuss out of everything when you don't tell me when you're unwell.

Baby, I know I'm irritating and annoying today, don't be angry at me? Forgive me pleasey!

Baybeegirl, I'm just so afraid to lose you. I couldn't imagine how my life would be, and what I would do if I were to lose you. I need you forever, you're the one whom has made the biggest difference in my whole life. You're the most important person in my life. Baby, I love you. I love you more than anything in this world.